why have i lost it all and still in the race

well my dad had this company keywalls for 30 years intel he lost it
when he lost it eveything went down hill we had good money realy good but we lost it making us scramble around not knowing what to do we lost are house are cars are money are life
30 years of hard work just thrown out it felt like i cant understand
i would never feel like my dad probly was feeling he had to be hurting i was
after we lost all that including alot of other stuff such as 14 family members
it push down us we begain to lose are sight are feeling i became very angry and upset and did not listen to god i felt hopeless gone to the world i began to have problem through out my family still do had alot of pain anger holding up i got up everyday and turn the my xbox on and then ignored everything and every body no sleep no people no bible no church no love no strengh no trust i had lost what i had just started to gain it was realy hard till i open my eyes
i lost all of that stuff and my family did because we lost sight of god we where not thankful for the things we are today we wernt listing to god we had are plans and that all that matterd we needed to see and i think god aloud it go all be taken so that we could see the things we could not see before the bad that we had consumed in are hearts
but i walked with my fist up and my eyes open and my heart new and i have change more then i could ever tell you ive gain everything back and more i have steped up and im never going to turn around thanks for reading